Learning to Splice
Maybe it's just February talking here, but I can't think of a better way to spend a rainy Saturday morning on the boat than to make a pot of coffee and teach myself how to splice double-braid rope.
Splicing is the method by which a rope is woven back into itself in a permanent way. Splices are most often used to create a loop (or 'eye') at the end of a rope, but you can also splice two pieces of rope together or splice a rope to a chain, and a 'back splice' is a great way to make the end of a rope tidy and fray-proof. There are probably some excellent reasons why splicing is superior to just using knots, but to be honest I think for me it just comes down to a combination of two things; a masochistic fascination for learning the arcane technical details and trappings of a hobby, and a somewhat puzzling affection towards ropes and wires.
The first bit, the drive to learn, isn't even remotely surprising given my age and gender; all men need some sort of intellectually stimulating hobby. I guess in another dimension I could be putting that portion of my brain to work studying the minutiae of some athlete's SuperBowl records, but frankly I just can't seem to understand the drive to watch other people play sports. Back when I was trying to be a techno rockstar, I justified my obsessive gear hoarding, building and modification by saying "every man needs a model train set, in one form or another...", and I think it holds true.
The second part is a little baffling though - as a techno guy, I noticed that studio audio cables came in all different grades, from $10 cheap-o patch cords to $150 ultra-high-end ones. I also noticed that the ultra-high-end cables could be built at home using the exact same components for about $30. I proceeded to buy connectors and cable in bulk lots from eBay, and build custom replacements for almost every last cable in my studio. I got a surprising amount of enjoyment out of this - something about sitting down with a fresh spool of cable and a baggie of specialized hardware... the smell of the solder and the feel of the connectors, combined with the sense of accomplishment from having built something excellent and useful. I've begun to notice that I get exactly the same feeling from making 'cables' for use on the boat; see my previous entry on making new steering cables for another example.
When I purchased TIE Fighter, one of the many, many extras she came with was a sailcloth "ditty bag" with sail-repair tools and a Samson splicing kit. I set it aside with interest, knowing that at some point I'd want to learn the art. In the past year, I've come to regard all of the halyards - with their snap-shackles attached with bowline knots - with disdain. They stand out like white socks against a dark business suit; once you've seen them, you can't un-see them. A vessel as fine as TIE Fighter should be rigged appropriately!
Earlier this month I picked up a fifty-foot length of nice yellow floating double-braid line at half-price - not more of that ugly yellow polypropylene garbage, but really nice braided nylon. I figured it would make a perfect new dinghy painter, given that the last painter barely survived the latest windstorm, and so this morning I set down to learn to splice. My kit came with a handy (if tattered and stained) splicing manual, and just by following the directions I was fairly successful. I mean, I do have a bit of a technical history, and I am pretty handy with rope, but I was still able to complete a half-decent eye splice my very first try. That's a pretty far cry from the $35 - per splice! - I was quoted at the marine store.
I can't, however, say I had perfect success. The yellow rope in the first photo was supposed to be a pair of three-foot ropes, joined in the middle by a pair of eye splices and a steel O-ring and with a steel carabiner at either end. Oh, it came together just fine - but the ropes, meant to be identical in length so that they could be used as a fancy towing bridle for the zodiac, were not identical in length. Despite my careful measurements, the two ropes are significantly disparate, with one rope about eight inches longer than the other, and this means the bridle is completely useless as it will cause the zodiac to veer strongly to the side with the shorter bridle arm. I'm not sure why exactly this happened, but I'll mention it tonight when I go to drink scotch with my rigger friend Mike Flynn, in hopes that he nods knowingly and explains where I went wrong in his usual succinct way.
Anyhow. Things progress, and things are slowly calming down. I will hopefully have more time to write.
Homeless!
Today is the closing date for the sale of my house in Vancouver.
Yesterday I signed the last of the documents with the notary public and dropped off the last of the keys with the realtor, and apparently Monday I should see the mortgage accounts disappear from my web banking.
The sale represents both the severing of my biggest physical tie to the sedentary world and the un-shouldering of the single largest source of stress in my my life. My priorities and goals have changed, and while I know that real estate in Vancouver is a sound financial investment in the longer term, I also know that I'm not interested in settling down into a life on land right now. As long as I owned a property I would always have to be a landlord, something that I am neither good at nor enjoy.
The emotional fallout from the sale has been slow to manifest - the house was the last relic of a failed relationship and a terrible downward spiral through the second half of my twenties; a dream that, once achieved, proved to be a huge disappointment. I am incredibly thankful that I was lucky enough to learn reasonably early the folly in living one's life by others' ideas of success.
At age twenty-eight, I figured I had won the game - I had a cute, successful fiancée, a great, high-paying job and a gorgeous home studio in my own house. I literally had the proverbial white picket fence! By all conventional logic, I should have been on top of the world, but instead I was falling deeper and deeper into depression. My relationship was failing and I was drinking far too much. I was rapidly becoming overweight and unhealthy. I was miserable at my job, and it showed in my work. Still, when I stepped back and looked at my life, I couldn't see anything wrong with it! My ambition hit an all-time low - if the game is won, why bother continuing to play?
Fortunately that relationship fell apart in early 2007, and in the very same month the company I worked for was purchased and dismantled by the new owners. We received severance packages and pink slips and I watched, shellshocked, as my world crumbled around me. I spent the next few months fumbling about aimlessly, rented out the upper half the house and moved into the basement, and about a year later I started this blog.
The nearly four years since the collapse of that world has been a period of intense personal growth and discovery, of purging and change, much of which has been documented here. The house was the last reminder of the former life, and selling it has been both exhilarating and terrifying - not only was it a memento and an investment, but also a safety net should this crazy living-on-a-boat adventure turn sour! I think I've proven to myself over the past two years the value in trusting my instincts and following my dreams, and I have no intention of stopping now.
As it turns out, personal happiness has very little to do with the ideas portrayed in the movies - everyone knows that once the prince rescues the princess and carries her off into the sunset on horseback, they live "happily ever after". So why wasn't my 'success' a source of unending joy? Life is defined by struggle, by working toward goals - but when all of those goals are achieved, then what? How many women look as much forward to the six months following their wedding as they do to the wedding itself? What was Ward Cleaver really thinking?
In the past four years I've learned many lessons about the pursuit of happiness. I've learned to actively appreciate beauty, and that the time and energy spent to experience fleeting moments of intense beauty is not wasted. I've learned that while acquiring possessions stimulates a similar part of the mind, real happiness doesn't require anything material. Most of all though, I've learned that happiness is subjective to each person individually, and that it is the sum of emotion and experience. For me, happiness is a combination of freedom, beauty and opportunity.
So! It is official. Apart from six tupperware bins in a storage locker and music equipment and furniture "stored" with friends and family, I have severed my physical ties to the land.
As for what's next... that post will come soon.
January is a Whirlwind
I'm realizing that I'm slipping into the old habit of not writing, which is especially irritating given that it was one of my unwritten (see? argh.) New Years Resolutions. For posterity, the list - I might as well get these down now, to help break the cycle:
- write more,
- develop and trust my emotions,
- procrastinate less (see #1), and
- seize any opportunity to gain new skills.
The first of the four is pretty obviously failing so far, but that is because #4 has been taking up a lot of my time. I've become involved with the Vancouver chapter of the Bluewater Cruising Association, a support network for offshore sailors who are either planning to head off into the great blue yonder, who are currently out there living the dream, or who have "been there, done that" and returned to tell the tale.
So far, I've been mostly taking advantage of the education offered through the BCA - I've enrolled in two classes, one for offshore meteorology and another for ham radio operations and licensing. Both classes are proving to be well worth the time and money spent - the more I learn about ham radio, the more it interests me! The world of amateur radio - and more specifically, 'packet radio', or computer networking over the airwaves - has a distinctive feel to it so far, one that strongly reminds me of learning about the world of modems and dial-up bulletin board systems, back before the internet gained popularity.
Furthermore, my day job has increased in responsibility, so now I am working very nearly full-time hours during the week. Part of me is tickled to spend my days working in cloud computing and my nights learning how to interpret cloud formations! Still, with full-time hours and courses five days per week, I'm not left with much free time to socialize.
Miya sadly had to move back to Seattle this week - her day job was only willing to allow her to work remotely for two months, and those two months flew by faster than either of us expected. Given that I spent a lot of time paring down my possessions and footprint to make room for a second human aboard the Tie Fighter, her moving off has left the boat feeling somewhat cavernous and empty. We'll still be together moving forward, with her moving back onto the boat in a few months, but that's a subject that could (and will) make an entire posting itself.
Live and Learn
If nothing else, living aboard is a constant source of new practical information. For instance, did you know that while landing a motored zodiac on a beach in two foot breaking waves is simple and straightforward, disembarking from that same beach can be deceptively difficult?
The strong northwesterly winds that started early this morning had us bobbing around quite a lot, and while Miya put up a brave face for a few hours eventually it became clear that she'd be a lot more comfortable (and get more work done) on the shore. We dressed in full foul-weather gear, bailed out the dinghy from the night before, and aside from the tricky part - getting down from the tall side-decks of Tie Fighter into a dinghy that's rising and falling almost a meter with every wave - the trip to shore went smoothly. We gunned the throttle on the down slope of a cresting wave about three meters from shore and surfed gently onto the beach, tilting up the outboard motor on its hinge just before the blades hit the sand.
I bid Miya farewell and started to drag the zodiac into the water but the first waves met crested up and over her bow, dropping a few inches of seawater into the little boat. I laughed it off and pushed through anyway, dipping a paddle into the water to taker her out to sea the required three or four meters so that I could start the outboard motor without the propellor hitting the sand. To my surprise and alarm, the blade of the little collapsable paddle snapped cleanly off with my first stroke, and I watched as the plastic blade sank quickly to the bottom. Another set of larger waves took the zodiac sideways and shorewards, and then a larger-still wave broke over the side, filling the little boat almost to the gunwales and pushing her heavily onto the sand. I jumped out, and with Miya's help dragged her up a few feet up the beach.
They say that the definition of insanity is to do the same thing over and over while expecting different results. For the next ten minutes or so I must have appeared certifiable to the slowly-gathering onlookers, though I couldn't figure out any other way to get back to Tie Fighter! Without a paddle to help take the boat out past the breakers, the timing would have to be perfect - I'd have to wait for a calm(er) set of waves, push the dinghy out just past the breaking waves, jump in, and try to get the motor started while the dinghy was still in deep enough water. By the fourth try, I was having good luck getting out far enough, but for one reason or another the pull-start of the outboard just wasn't starting! A dozen or so rapid pulls and the motor finally sputtered to life... just in time for the waves to push me ashore and flood the boat again.
After a fifth attempt, Miya pointed out that I'd torn the crotch completely out of my cheap yellow rain pants. I swapped pants with Miya and gave it another shot - I pushed the little boat out as far as I could, then tried to jump in... my timing this time was poor, and a wave chose that exact moment to crest just past the dinghy, causing the undertow to drag the dinghy out from under me as I jumped. I was now hanging on to the side of the dinghy with my legs in the ocean up to my upper thighs. My rain gear protected me somewhat, but all I could think of was how much harder it would be to stay above if my tall rubber sailing boots were to fill with water. I scrambled aboard as fast as I could, with the water only soaking me to my knees, dropped the propellor into the water, and pulled the starter... and it started!
I motored off the beach slowly, standing in 20cm or so of cold ocean water, soaked and feeling somewhat ridiculous. I made my way back to the safety of Tie Fighter, and Miya watched from the beach until I climbed aboard, on the off chance the Gods of the Sea weren't done with me for the day and something else terrible happened. It is painfully clear that whoever coined the phrase "up a creek without a paddle" - although clearly 'river folk' - was on to something, probably as a result of a bad experience.
You know what they say about experience: it's the best way to avoid mistakes... and the only way to get experience is to make mistakes. I'm going to chalk today's events up to "gaining experience".



































